Well my due date has arrived and there is no sign of bub. Even though we know that we have only a 50% chance of going into labour by our due date I think we all hope for an early bub. The count down to this date is like it is locked in. Even though I know it’s not rational I can’t help but feel disappointed that I’m still pregnant!
Whilst disappointed I’m still coping with it all fairly well but that doesn’t mean that I’m going to enjoy my last few days of pregnancy (as my midwife phrased it today). How often are we told how wonderful pregnancy is with the glowing skin, miracle of growing a new life and the excitement of expanding your family? Not many people seem to talk about the hard parts which I believe outnumber the easy.
First of all we have to fall pregnant in the first place. With a history of Endometriosis and two IVF babies I can understand as well as anyone how hard this can be. After that we have the dreaded first trimester to get through with the heightened fear of miscarriage, fatigue and nausea. My husband and I were never ones to wait until the 13 week mark to announce either of our pregnancies. It would have been impossible to keep the secret the 2nd time around with my bump popping out at 6 weeks and almost constant nausea and fatigue not making me feel like my normal self.
After that the real fun begins as we take on the third trimester. That first time you realise that turning sideways doesn’t make you smaller than trying to get through a crowd front on! Then there’s the heartburn, reflux, cramps, ligament pain the list goes on! And how I miss being able to go for a run with even a short stroll with our dog making me feel sore. All those new mums that have come from an active lifestyle will know the feeling of losing the ability to train like we used to. When did a 1km walk start counting as exercise?!
But it’s not all bad. It’s an exciting time and I do love having such a good excuse to lie down on the couch in the middle of the day. This is really just to point out how amazing I think all new mums are. We all go through so much even before our bubs are even born – I haven’t even mentioned the best bit – labour yet!
Here’s to enjoying my last few days ever of being pregnant. Wish me luck!
“It’s not the load that breaks you down, it’s the way you carry it”.